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It all began a mere 50 years ago on July 31, 1961. Dear world, I'm here! Let my dreams begin! I never really had any expectations that any of my dreams would actually come true and yet there was always that hope, that yearning, just like in Cinderella. You know what I mean? I'm talking about in the original movie back in the 1960's, not the Disney cartoon. The one with real people and she is singing and hoping and longing for an extraordinary life beyond the mop bucket? I would watch it once a year on one of the three channels that were available on our black and white TV, (not counting Channel 7, of course). I used to imagine myself as Cinderella. Not the "beautiful" girl part but the part of her that dared to dream beyond her wildest dreams and in the end, her dreams actually did come true. After all, does that even really happen to people in living color? I was raised to only get what you work for, nothing is free. For that I am extremely grateful. Still, my dreams seemed too far away to ever become reality, the work to get there always seemed way beyond my reach. Within a few short months of my first year of college, however, I found my "prince charming" and I just knew my life would be changed forever. I was young but it didn't matter, at the time..Dreams, what dreams? Travel, adventure, who cares? He was a handsome, witty, spiritual, hard worker and most importantly, charming. I married him in a heartbeat and we were off to begin the adventure of a lifetime of endless dreams fulfilled. Funny. It has been said that if you want to give God a good laugh, tell Him your plans. I imagine He was laughing pretty hard when He listened to my plans. I honestly thought I had come to my dreams end. Man,was I ever a dreamer! Within 3 months, we were pregnant with the first of five children in less than 10 years. Needless to say, my plans and dreams changed dramatically! Traveling to exotic places and seeing the world took a back seat. We were just happy to be able to buy milk, diapers and gas for our wood panelled station wagon without having to take out a loan before the next pay check! A time and a season for everything is what I kept hearing. For a time, my dreams of travel took a back seat and reality became relentlessly routine. Our focus forcably changed from dreams to just keeping the kids alive. We traveled a bit but it was hard because we were mostly broke. After serious health problems for both myself and my husband, we changed our focus to become more concerned with God's plan for us than our own plans for us. That was when we began to see the dreams start to become a reality. Funny how mortality has a way of teaching you what is most important. Interestingly, when we finally accepted God's plan for us, some 12 years later, life got much easier, and happier I might add and oddly enough, our plans to see the world became closer! We had to struggle through some pretty rough waters throughout our 32 years of marriage. Well, I guess "rough waters" is putting it too lightly. It's been more like "tsunami waters" at times. But we have paddled on and on and with much patience, in every stroke in the last 20 years of our marriage, they have been strokes that have been aimed at guiding our "life boat" towards our Heavenly Father. What a difference it has made in our marriage, in our lives, in my life. And so, this blog is dedicated to the secret, inner whisperings of my heart. The dreams that only I have known, the ones that have lingered long in the inner recesses of my mind and the dreams that I have always hoped for but never really dared to believe that they would come true. A lot of which I have never even dared to utter. I am continually amazed when I realize that my Father in Heaven has known my every dream, and in His plan and timetable, as we dare to forget what we think we want to focus on, He makes our dreams come true! He knows the righteous desires of our hearts.
My prince charming? I found him.
A time and a season for everything? I think I finally get it!
Who's laughing now?
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